As of midnight tomorrow, my life is over.

Yes, whatever semblance of a social life I had, ends tomorrow. As of December 16th, I am no longer insured to drive "my" car. You see, due to the fact I've gotten two speeding tickets, the company will no longer insure me. The car which I had, is actually owned by my father, purchased under his name and insured under his name. Really, I'm just the driver. He is listed as primary driver and my sister and I are secondary. Or now, she is. So it's her car now. I am not insured to drive anything. I could buy my own car and find insurance elsewhere, but I really don't know how costly that would be. Almost certainly more than I can afford.

Now I know that a lot of people don't have cars, but for me it's a greater setback than most in regards to any sort of social aspect. Most people have many friends and can easily score rides. Not me. Failing that, they live in the city and have access to a large mass transit system. Most of their friends live close as well. Not so for me. I mean, if I were cooler, more attractive, more fun, more popular, I could get away with it. But I'm not. Having access to a car was at least one thing I had going for me. Now what do I have? Not much.

So, it's over. My social life, which had long been on life support, is now terminated. Not like I really had many places to go, but still what few things I did have to do, are now kaput. Doing anything with my friend Blondie? Not going to happen anymore. She doesn't drive. Having the ability to go to something like that karaoke party a few weeks back? Not really even an option anymore. I guess I'll still be able to have drinks with Marty Boy every now and then and talk football, but that's about it. How sad. I'm not even going to get into what this will do in regards to dating. No one's going to want to go out with some loser who doesn't drive. Yes, I'm sure few women would admit to that, but by and large, I know it's the truth. If I lived on my own, fine. Not such a big deal. Now I'm a loser who doesn't drive and lives at home. If I were 16 this would be acceptable, but not at 24. If I were female, it wouldn't really be a problem. Sorry, but there is a double standard here, like it or not. This really is emasculating. And just the sheer logistics of it. I mean, I meet a girl on the internet, let's say. She lives in Hamilton let's say. Only a 25-30 minute drive. But how would I get there now? Exactly.

24 years old...living at home...no car, no friend, nothing going on. What a catch. Sorry about the miserable post. I just feel so worthless now. I'll try and post something amusing tomorrow.