I need to be more careful in the future...
My life pretty much consists of school, more school, work on weekends and playing MVP Baseball 2005 (the season is over, it's how I get my fix). Life is DULL. There really must be more than this to it. Yikes. This post is already sucking, I know. Semi-regular sex is nice, but everytime, all I can think of is "How do I end it" (whatever it is)? Whatever it is, she is not it. Things could be worse, however. School is okay and it's only a month until Christmas break. Yippee.
On another front, girl who I stupidly gave blog address to, seems to have deleted me from MSN. I'm pretty sure she has, anyway. The date didn't go too well, yes, but I still think she's a nice person. I certainly would've liked to have continued to talk to her. Her reading this is probably to blame. I can't say I wouldn't have done the same, but still makes me a bit sad. I do also feel like a bit of a jerk. Still, I have learned my lesson here and now know to be more selective with whom I share the address. That actually reminds me of a question I wanted to ask the lovely Daphne, that being whether or not her dude knows of her personal blog. I mean, they have a great relationship, so it's not like there's much that she should be wary of sharing with him, but all relationships have at least a spot of trouble, here and there and I know I'd want to blog all my relationship stuff, the good and the bad. Again, just need to never give this out to any ladies ever again. Just a musing there.
That's enough of this shit, time to get back to my dull existence. Someone save me from this. Please.
On another front, girl who I stupidly gave blog address to, seems to have deleted me from MSN. I'm pretty sure she has, anyway. The date didn't go too well, yes, but I still think she's a nice person. I certainly would've liked to have continued to talk to her. Her reading this is probably to blame. I can't say I wouldn't have done the same, but still makes me a bit sad. I do also feel like a bit of a jerk. Still, I have learned my lesson here and now know to be more selective with whom I share the address. That actually reminds me of a question I wanted to ask the lovely Daphne, that being whether or not her dude knows of her personal blog. I mean, they have a great relationship, so it's not like there's much that she should be wary of sharing with him, but all relationships have at least a spot of trouble, here and there and I know I'd want to blog all my relationship stuff, the good and the bad. Again, just need to never give this out to any ladies ever again. Just a musing there.
That's enough of this shit, time to get back to my dull existence. Someone save me from this. Please.
posted by King Hippo at 10:31 PM
7 Comments:
Hey,
No, I learned my lesson about relationships and blogging with my last guy. He wouldn't stop reading it, but absolutely hated seeing that I posted stuff about him. My argument was that it's *my* outlet, and I'll use it as I see fit, and isn't it better that I complain to the blogging ether rather than complaining to our mutual friends? Anyway, he didn't see it that way. When we broke up, I changed my blog address.
So no, N/A doesn't have my address. He knows I blog, but he has no desire to read it. He knows it's personal-ish. And you're right - I haven't blogged anything bad about him anyway. But still, the option of "private" blogging about him is there, should I need it.
sigh. off to get ready for work. 4 more days in the office left, and I'm a free woman...
Scooter knows that I blog as well. Fortunatly, he thinks computers are the devil and has know idea how to work one. But anything I've said about Scooter on my blog I've already said to his face so even if he did read it, he wouldn't be shocked.
Daphne has mentioned something I've never understood about this personal blogging. How can anyone be surprised when somebody reads it? Is that not the point?
Complaining on the internet strikes me as much, much worse than confiding in a few friends, becasue not only is it circulated among those friends, but literally anybody with a computer and a phone jack can read it. I'd hate for a significant other to post personal details about me, even postitve details.
I understand the desire to get things off of one's chest through writing, but why do it in this public way, particularly if doing so might hurt a real live person? Why not keep a diary? There is, after all, no such thing as "private" blogging, right?
There is no such thing as personal blogging (yes, that would be called a diary), but it really isn't that hard to control who reads it and who doesn't. First off, most people do not use there real or full names anywhere on the blog, so it's not like a google search would turn anything up. Unless you have the address, it's pretty darn hard to find the blog you want.
Keeping the address as private as possible really isn't that tough, so long as you only give it out to people you know, trust and want reading your blog. The only other people who are going to read are those in the blog community, who might happen upon it by accident or whatever. Those people are strangers (though can certainly become friends)and as such, what they may think of your posts really doesn't matter so much in the long run.
And yes, as is with Daphne and Squirrely, it's 'my outlet'. I feel more comfortable writing things down than I do saying them aloud, but at the same time I like feedback and interaction. Really I am confiding in a few people. Again, just be careful as to who those people are.
Amen, King Hippo. That's exactly my take on the private outlet through a public medium thing. I've never posted N/A's real name (which is good, since it's so uncommon), so if he ever decided to google himself, it'd never come up. So, the people I want to read my blog are more than welcome, but the people I don't want to read it can't easily find it.
And, while my friends are grand, sometimes I just don't feel like ranting out loud to them. Often, whatever I'm annoyed with doesn't annoy me so much once I've typed and posted it - so why burden them with useless prattle?
I could just write a diary - I used to. But, I like the blog medium too much. I like my blog community, the fun layout & photo blogging ability, and the satisfaction of seeing my thoughts in print.
Anyway, I guess the moral of my rant is that yes, I understand that the internet is public to a certain extent. However, since the WWW is so vast, it does allow for a certain degree of privacy.
I just blog because it gives me something to do at work.
Amen, Squirrely. Blogging has filled many hours on the clock for me as well. Seriously, the want to pay me to blog! They just don't realize it.
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