Someone please help me.
I am really depressed. Maybe more so then I've ever been. I don't even know how to describe it. I'm not sure if I want to cry or scream or what. I just know that I'm hurting right now. A LOT. And I feel so helpless. I really don't know what to do, who to talk to or what to say. I can't even put any of this into words. I really can't. But this is bad...I don't like this. I'm scared and sad and just feel so helpless.
I am just so lonely.
I wish I could suck it up.
I wish I could make this go away.
I want to feel better.
I want to be confident.
It's all the same issue. Yes, the fact that nobody wants me. I truly believe that and I just can't see it otherwise. No one wants someone who feels the way I do all the time. No one wants a depressing loser. But that's just how I feel. I can't make myself un-sad. I am sad ALL the time. Seeing someone doesn't help; I just can't seem to open up. The pills don't seem to help. I want to get better. I want to feel good. I want someone to want me.
Why doesn't anyone want me?
Why can't I have some happiness?
Why am I crying right now?
I'm a good person, I know I am. I know that I could make someone very happy, if only I got the chance. But it seems I'm just not good enough for anyone. There's something wrong with me.
I don't even know if I have the strength to carry on anymore.
I am just so lonely.
I wish I could suck it up.
I wish I could make this go away.
I want to feel better.
I want to be confident.
It's all the same issue. Yes, the fact that nobody wants me. I truly believe that and I just can't see it otherwise. No one wants someone who feels the way I do all the time. No one wants a depressing loser. But that's just how I feel. I can't make myself un-sad. I am sad ALL the time. Seeing someone doesn't help; I just can't seem to open up. The pills don't seem to help. I want to get better. I want to feel good. I want someone to want me.
Why doesn't anyone want me?
Why can't I have some happiness?
Why am I crying right now?
I'm a good person, I know I am. I know that I could make someone very happy, if only I got the chance. But it seems I'm just not good enough for anyone. There's something wrong with me.
I don't even know if I have the strength to carry on anymore.
posted by King Hippo at 11:39 PM
2 Comments:
Hey Hippo
You've got plenty of people looking out for you, worried about you. I'm one of them. I was just talking to a friend of mine who is in therapy, and couldn't say enough good things about it once she opened up to the doctor.
And think of it this way: At least you're not in New Orleans, right? Send a donation to the red cross, you'll feel better, and you'll make an impact.
Yes, you should be thankful for so many things in your life. You could be so much worse. Think of all the starving people in the world. I agree with "Beer". Think of those in New Orleans right now, your life looks like a fairy tale compared to theirs. Be happy with what you have because you have SO much, you just can't see it.
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